Purple Mountain of Despair

treadmill
running
punishing
awake in bed
turning
exhausting
time travel
flashes
in technicolor
roll over
still there
accidental marathon
no water
no line
no supporters
just me
that phone call
that email
that conversation
tomorrow
or three years ago
it never happened
never will
nightmares and
documentaries
fragile film
impossible to destroy
self
destruct
construct
visions, fears
roll over
still there
screaming
loving
roll over
still there
pace changing
fighting
falling
asleep
without you.